Memories Flash back

well... today lots of things happened... made me remember lots of things... how my so called friends treated me...

During pri sch...
- bag got opened and wallet got stolen...
- trust my friend and we went to CC and study together... she stole my stuff

During sec sch..
- friends irritate me so that i can blow up and got chased out of the class
- bro laugh at me for being in choir
- further laugh at me cuz i am in sop

of cuz... there are lots of thing i can't remember... or maybe now... too unstable... like any moment a F word will be spammed like a machine gun... so ya..

even now... i dunno wad i shld do... only i can figure out myself... out of words.. my brain is going haywire... every single thing is negetive now...

maybe i am too tired... but normally its not like that... =/

so ya.. till i am cool... or something... wish someone can hear me out... but everyone so busy... really wish someone could help me... i could scream out and i know... there is no help... no one will come to me to help me... lost of words... lost of path... lost of light...