After so long.....

Its been more than a week since my grandpa died... but wad i am feeling now is still crappy as ever... more afraid than spirits den usual i have no idea why... can't concentrate well... now i am practically blasting music into my ear at work... now is break so i can acutally type the blog a while.

Its so hard to keep this mask on now.... really really miss my grandpa u know... and i dunno wad else to say... just crappy now... but i will be happy for the sake of my friends and God that is above watching over me. Knowing that he will be good to me as he will not give a challenge that is far greater than wad i can take. Well... dun think anyone is gonna read my blog as it seems to be fill with spider web now... haha

Ok ba... thats all... dunno wad to say too... haha....